48 | š³ Observations from an officer involved shooting
I sat down with my friend Duffy to record a storyā one of his personal storiesā for the GY6 project. Thereās a section in the workshop where we walk about Moral injury and the multi-faceted ways in which it can āhappenā to any of usā¦
(For clarity, I think Moral Injury is a much bigger issue than PTSD, AND I think a lot of people confuse it with PTSD since we donāt talk a lot about itā see the links below for more clarification.)
Hereās what happenedā¦
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I asked Duffy about a shooting he was involved in (as an officer who fired his weapon)ā¦
ā¦ that was the story he shared in the previous episode, where he thought he was responding to a flipped car on the wrong side of the highwayā¦
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Amidst that storyā which we originally met to record, he told me about the incident that opened the entire podcast episode, the time when they arrested a drug dealer and the neighborhood who was reeling from the effects of those drugs bowed up and stood against the officersā 100 civilians threatening 5 officers.
Of course, we got into the story about the internal affairs investigation, the homicide inquiry (all standard procedure with officer involved shootings)ā¦
ā¦ losing his gun and badge for a weekā¦
ā¦ and his ex-wife cheating and leaving him, taking the kids out of stateā¦
ā¦ and the threat of Jesse Jackson coming to town to protest against him and the other officersā¦
And then he starts talking about trauma related to the coast guard.
A helicopter going downā¦
After a fellow coastie drowning during a training incident.
And that lead to a discussion on an officer he knewā Justin Billaā who was killed while responding to a domestic just two days after they worked togetherā¦
And that lead to a story about Sean Tuder, who was also killed in the line of dutyā¦
ā¦ both of these being men Duffy knew and worked with.
All of thatā¦
ā¦ from talking about one story.
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We didnāt go fishing for any of this. It just came up.
It was AFTER the fact, after he told me these stories, that I went back, found the videos online, and began stitching them together in the narrative form you now hear.
But it was all there.
He pulled one threadā¦ and things just flowed.
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Why do I tell you that?
Because thatās what trauma is often like.
You start dealing with it, and you suddenly realize, āIāve got more there, more to deal with.ā
And, thatās good.
It would be LESS normal to NOT be impacted by these things that it is to be impacted.
In the same way you canāt walk outside in the rain without an umbrella and not get wet, you canāt walk through lifeā especially in some of these professionsā and not take multiple hits to the spirit, the soul, and sometimes even the bodyā¦
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As my friend Beau might sayā I interviewed him back in episodes 44-46, āYouāre not broken. Youāve just been through a lot. And, as a result, you adapted.ā
Of course he would say it more articulately than that, but you get the ideaā¦
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Links you need to know about =
š š šŖAfter Action Project = https://www.afteractionproject.org/
š³ It is PTSD or Moral Injury, episode 41 = https://www.jenkins.tv/podcasts/podcast-version-2-0/episodes/2149187869
š Soul & Spirit Health + Healing = www.GY6.online/SSHH
šļø GY6 events = www.GY6.online/events
š³ The ābest ofā Soul Wholeness audio = www.Jenkins.tv/best (free audio course)
š One-to-one personal coaching = https://www.jenkins.tv/PC
